On fearing God

I've been learning about fearing God lately.  And thinking a lot about fear.  Tornado sirens do that to me.  God's power is pretty amazing, scary really.

When I first started reading the Bible, one of the questions I asked, was about fearing God.  What did that mean exactly.  I have no idea who I asked, but whoever it was tried to explain that it was more of a reverence, like a respect than a fear.  It isn't a bad explanation at all, but it has taken me a while to get it. 

I have been learning that the way I fear God is a litmus test for how much faith I have...or how much I trust Him.  If I don't trust Him, then the realization that He has the power to destroy everything I hold dear, scares the living daylights out of me.  It leads me to all kinds of emotions that I don't even want to admit I have, and ultimately panic, and sometimes bitterness.

On the other hand, when I am at a place of peace and trust with God, I am able to acknowledge His power...respect His power, but without being scared.  I mean, pain is scary, and unknown pain scares me even more, but when I am really in a place of trust, then I know that even those unknowns are taken care of...that I am not in control, and that is a good thing.

I am learning that "fear of God" depends entirely on my perspective.