Sarah and Hannah planted these sunflowers in our backyard. The girls have been so excited to see them grow taller than Daddy.

Jars of Clay

We were reading Nine Days to Christmas today, and it got me thinking about jars of clay. In the book, Ceci is so upset that her first pinata is going to be broken. Her brother Salvador says that pinatas are made to be broken. It was profound in a simple way. We, too, are made to be broken.

7But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. II Corinthians 4:7-12

We are fragile. Our brokenness means wholeness in a weird sort of way.

I have gained 10 pounds this year. I think it is mostly because I am getting older and my metabolism has slowed down. I have never gained weight without being pregnant, so I have been annoyed by it, and have gone through several different "diets" to try to remove this extra baggage. I tried counting calories. I always felt like I was starving myself. I tried training for a 5K. I kept having stupid injuries (like a really bad stubbed toe and then weird pain from a tick bite). So I gave up several times. Then a little over a month ago, I started praying about it, how I thought it was mastering me, and I didn't want to be mastered by anything. I continue in prayer, but God has given me wisdom this time to take steps in discipline that I will be able to keep up long term. I pray for continued discipline each day, but I don't feel like I am starving myself, and I have enjoyed running consistently but moderately. So this week, the scale finally said that I have lost all 10 pounds. But I am more glad for the life changing that God has been working in me. He gets the glory, I am just the broken vessel. Praise God.